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tatawa muna ako!

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It's been a long time, long time... (yung kanta yan ni aaliyah!)

Ang tagal ko ng di nakapag - update sa blog ko. Hindi pa naman siguro ako napag - iwanan ng panahon. Busy lang naghahanap ng trabaho, naghahanap ng pera, naghahanap sa sarili, naghahanap sa buhay at kung anu - ano pa hinahanap ko. Yung nawawala kong panty hinahanap ko! hahay.

Nitong mga nakaraang araw, o di kaya mga linggo na kung tutusin, inaayos ko ang magulo kong buhay. Matagal na cyang magulo. Kung ikukumpara ko siya sa isang papel ka level na niya yung tissueng manipis, gusot - gusot pero pilit na inaayos at kulang na lang e plantsahin. OA pakinggan pero totoo. HInahanap ko talaga ang direksyon ko. Nakakapagod na nga e.

Pero may mga malaki akong achievements ngayon tulad ng pag - aaply ko sa call centers. Kahit naiinis ako sa mga nakadikit na signs sa loob ng mga kompanyang to (tulad na lamang ng, "English is the only language spoken here") kailangan ko talaga ng pera. Tapos mahirap pala siya, pero fulfilling. Yung tipong kasabayan mo e mga professionals na, mga tatay, nanay, ate at kuya, basta matanda na. Tapos ako sweet 18! hehe..

To make the long long story short.. I'm on my way to the last hirit, Final interview. Whew!

I just hope my next post would be about my success story! =D

Marami pa akong dapat i - update sa life ko. But who cares? Basta...

i miss these people =D

Amelie:weird and beautiful

"So your bones aren't made of glass, you can take life's knocks. If you let this chance go by, eventually your heart will become dry and brittle as my skeleton..."

Chances and cowardice spells clash.

Amelie. Everyone's telling me to watch it and I finally did.

Another addition to my favorite films. I think everybody likes it. I don't care but it made me smile. A rare smile combined with fascination of the eccentricity and weirdness of Amelie.

I love to see the world in the outside. To think outside yet to still hope that everything would all be alright in the inside. The orange quality of Amelie's life. I don't know but I see it that way. she spells the word change and different.

It's very true how I sometimes end up thinking how many people must have been kissing right now? ARE THERE INSOMNIACS OUT THERE SIPPING THEIR BESTFRIEND COFFEE AT THE WEE HOURS OF THE MORNING TYPING THINGS LIKE WHAT i'M DOING?oR How many could be rushing to the hospital looking forward to a new baby in the family? Have couples been making love right now and enjoying every minute of it? Who could probably be eating an oreo dipped in peanut butter? Whatever. The possibilities would be larger than life, that's for sure.Whatever, whatever...


Life is really... (a trillion probable things or even more to complete this cliche)

It reminded me again of my wishes.


How happy it is to ride on a motorbike with the someone. To snuggle your face behind his neck and have that look of bliss upon the mere fact of being with each other. The priceless comfort of you holding behind his back, feeling each other as the wind blow straight to your face making you feel so beautiful like never before.


Or to make that "DIFFERENCE".


red wallpaper.moscow.treasure box.artichoke.bangs.photos.red sneakers.album.motorbike.bar.hypochondriac.painting.waiter.blue arrows.horror train.jacket.letters.red wine.fish.keys.strategem. woooooooooo...


the details were unconventional but familiar. (ironic)

Even their kiss was unusual. silence. longing. eccentric.


amelie.weird and beautiful.

hala alas kwatro y medya na ng umaga

hindi pa rin ako makatulog. Apat na magkakasunod na araw na akong ganito. nakakatakot, hindi na ako dinadaanan ng antok. hindi ako to. kakambal ko ata ang salitang tulog kaysa pagkain.


marami kasing bagay ang gumugulo sa buhay ko ngayon. sobrang dami. at nahihiya ako dahil sobrang narsisismo ang pinagsusulat ko dito. repleksyon na ba to ng mga bagay - bagay na bumagbagabag sa akin. hindi na naman ako masay. hindi ko rinmasasbing malungkot ako. parang wala lang direksyon. wala akong konkretong mga plano hindi lang para sa ikauunlad ko kundi ng mundo sa kabuuan. naiinis lang talga ako kasi puro na lang ako ang iniisip ko.basta.

minsan wala na talga akong ibang inisip kundi maghanap, gawin ang mga bagay na nagpapasaya sa akin. umabot sa puntong hindi ko rin naman nararamdaman ang pagiging kontento.

masyado ata akong vague.

ayoko nung selfish ako.

siguro may isa lang talaga akong gustong mangyari.


yung maibahagi ko yung sarili ko. ewan ko kung sa ano, kung sa sino o kung sa paano.


ang gulo ko. nakakayamot.

pakulam

gusto ko ipakulam ang magnanakaw.


im calm now.ninakawan na ako ng anim na panties sa yakal residence hall. i don't care for their damn publicity. kainis talaga mga magnanakaw.

orange and red checks, 2 plain ones, a yellow green and a purple one with flower prints.


kailangan konh palakpakan ang sarili ko sa hhindi pagmumura dito. sobra yung galit na naramdaman ko kagabi.


I thank the people I texted who cared. It's petty but if you think about it sobrang haggard yung magsuot ng panty ng iba. Isipin nyo yun. Isipin nyo.

Buhay pa siya may limos na siyang panty sa akin.

apples

Minsan naiisip ko, sino kaya una kong makakasex?
Tama lang naman na isipin ko yun diba?
Masarap kay yun?
Sinasabi ng utak ko, oo.
Sinasabi ng puso ko, depende kung sino
Sinasabi ng keps ko, masakit...
...pero addictive
Haaay...
Hindi ako naniniwala sa preservation of virginity
Naniniwala akong practice makes perfect
Naniniwala din akong mas masaya
Kung sa minamahal
May romantic involvement, kailangan
May kislap sa mga mata
May ardent desire
May konsepto ng kandila
Ng soft music
Ng white o pink sheets
Ng champagne
Ng lingerie
Ng aftershave
Ng bath tub with warm water and flowers
Ng condom...
Kung di pa ako tapos sa pag - aaral
Yung tipong wala akong pangamba
Maiiyak ako sa halong galak, sakit, sarap
Mutual satisfaction dapat
Langit?
Tapos may aftermath
May yakapan ng magkatabi lang
May `Never Saw Blue Like That' mode
At sa tabi ng kama
May apples

sipping coffee

Sipping my coffee. Wanting to write. Nothing.

Aika, what would be the three things that would make you happy?

That would be...

*work in a call center. I want to generate my own income. I have to. I think I have to. With my hedonist lifestyle, it's a must
*ukay, shopping. enough said
*go home and be with my family
a.k.a Go'd bonus -> boyfriend?




Aika, what is happiness?

That's quite elusive. People are insatiable. I am insatiable. So I guess true happiness comes in small packages . Say flowers, yellow ones, chocolates, tofi luk, good grades, about 1.25, kiss, french, strawberries, with in milkshake and even sex, with a super loved one. And if it comes all together, it's called super happiness. haha. Profound. (What do you want to call it then? Huh? Helur?)



Aika, are you happy?

I can't answer that.
Sometimes when I am asleep, I think I am happy. How's that?

spontaneous a.k.a walang kwenta

try ko lang magsulat ng walng kwenta.alm mo yung tipong sinusulat mo lang kung ano nilalaman ng utak mo. halimbawa ngayong gusto ko kumain ng pizza, kaso wala na kong pera. tapos masarap matulog.kelangan ko pa palang maglaba ng undies.kmusta na kaya sila sa bahay. magazine.cosmopolitan.yung libro tungkol sa italya. masarap yung panyo. ano raw? masarap yung panyo.heheheehehe... hindi pa ako nagdinner. meron kayang mabibilhan dito ng adobo? hmmm... lilinisan ko yung room ko pagkauwi ko sa dorm.gusto ko ng magshower. ang bango at ng body wash. yung phone ko laging no space for new messages. iba na talaga pag unlimited. hekhek.ang lamig nung aircon. teka wala na siyang sense diba? yung nga yung point e. dapat wala etong sense... gets? gets? gets aaww..

masarap mag - adobo ngayon o di kaya bermonts.

feels like breathing

Finally, it's good to feel like breathing again. After evrything I went through this week and even last last week, or shall I say my entire 2 years in college, it's a very rare oppurtunity to feel myself breathing, smiling, typing, blogging and doing things for the mere fun of it.

Ahhhhhhhh...


Let's have an assessment slash survry of what I've done.


Italian12 - My favorite since first year college. My passion. I'm quite disappointed i was not able to finish up to Italian 13. Performance: mediocre but there's a sense of learning without forcing. =D


Environmental Science I - Zzzzzz... Except for the yellow guy. =D
Exams - Not okay. Attendance - very okay. Learning - Uh?


Kasaysayan II - World History slash high school revival of my Filipino class. Fun. fun. fun... We had objective exams, over haggard "creative reports" and happy classmates! grade - very okay!!! wink. wink =D

English 21 - My favorite professor, Prof. Carlos Aureus. Very inspiring. He's one of those few individuals who makes you realize that life is worth every little thing, every Beowulf, every Sir Gawain, every great Shakespeare, every Spanish lessons, every grapology lesson, every life lesson, every compassionate, passionate mentor and unbelievably kind! Whew! Too good to be real. I would not want to be like him because I can't be anything like him because he is one unique, lovable person. Sir, you are a winner and a legacy in your own right. Shet. Performance and interest - 100 percent.

English 22 - Shelley, Keats , Tennyson and Lord Byron. Romanticism next level. And Prof Edna next level. happy. I've learned that it is a man's duty never to be idle! wahekehekhek... =D dba Skylark? Quizzes - poor but happy

CL111 - Short Stories = Ivy Goodman = A for best. I had a very hard time with all these postmodern, modern thingys! That's it. I'm quite miserable. I am a mute in this subject/ looking - dumb - as - ever. papers - very late.

UP Rep - This subject allows me to be me. This subject is haggard but this subject takes my breath away. hahaha.. Ang Maria production, Chalk dilemma, audience dilemma, Lola Maria and junjun... I miss it already! hehehe grade - 101! hmmm!

That's it. I'm through.

Inhale!

Exhale!

=D