presenting the up repertory company and myself...sponsored by happy toothpaste!
Friday, August 19, 2005
REPISTS! (ang ganda nung naka green! i notice niyo!bwahaha)
presenting the up repertory company and myself...sponsored by happy toothpaste!
Sunday, August 14, 2005
material girl
I tried to promise not to write about myself anymore. I guess I did not realize it’s going to be this hard. I miss my blog. And I miss having my pictures displayed all over my virtual life from this blog, to my friendster account and even my photobucket account. Yes, I am that narcissistic.
Well, there’s really no significant objective for this entry. It’s just im all alone in our room after I’ve finished cleaning it, took a bath and did my laundry; it’s so quiet and tal’s laptop just seems to invite me to write. There. With a glass of cold milo, im here wanting to capture everything that’s been going through my life since August started.
Hmmmm… I guess it won’t hurt if I share my misfortunes since last week. It’s not that I want to recall all of them, how I cried hard and all the bad vibes, maybe just to remind everyone that the worst really happens and you are left to handle the wrathful aftermath.
1. my favorite P250 worth bright orange umbrella was stolen
2. I was not able to take my first major exam in CL150 (a major)
3. A classmate borrowed my readings and she failed to return it ( she’s forgiven)
4. my ATM account was closed
5. my prof blamed me for not returning a set of readings which an irresponsible classmate borrowed from me.
and just some of the new things lately
1. I resigned from my part time job
2. my face is infested with pimples
3. my stupid haircut
I know no one would care to read this, except for Agnes, Mary Ann and Joy. Still, it’s really therapeutic to express life’s cruelties especially since you get more patient each day. Patient in the since that you breath in and breath out to stop yourself from murdering someone. TO the conscienceless person who stole my umbrella, to my classmate who told me that there was only discussion last meeting and no mention of test (the fact that it was my first time to be absent from that class), to the one who borrowed my readings, god bless you!
And I think, it feels good to stop working. Enough said. And sad in a way since im materialistic. Bye bye ukay2x, food trips, mcflurry, gifts galore…enough said material girl!
Well, there’s really no significant objective for this entry. It’s just im all alone in our room after I’ve finished cleaning it, took a bath and did my laundry; it’s so quiet and tal’s laptop just seems to invite me to write. There. With a glass of cold milo, im here wanting to capture everything that’s been going through my life since August started.
Hmmmm… I guess it won’t hurt if I share my misfortunes since last week. It’s not that I want to recall all of them, how I cried hard and all the bad vibes, maybe just to remind everyone that the worst really happens and you are left to handle the wrathful aftermath.
1. my favorite P250 worth bright orange umbrella was stolen
2. I was not able to take my first major exam in CL150 (a major)
3. A classmate borrowed my readings and she failed to return it ( she’s forgiven)
4. my ATM account was closed
5. my prof blamed me for not returning a set of readings which an irresponsible classmate borrowed from me.
and just some of the new things lately
1. I resigned from my part time job
2. my face is infested with pimples
3. my stupid haircut
I know no one would care to read this, except for Agnes, Mary Ann and Joy. Still, it’s really therapeutic to express life’s cruelties especially since you get more patient each day. Patient in the since that you breath in and breath out to stop yourself from murdering someone. TO the conscienceless person who stole my umbrella, to my classmate who told me that there was only discussion last meeting and no mention of test (the fact that it was my first time to be absent from that class), to the one who borrowed my readings, god bless you!
And I think, it feels good to stop working. Enough said. And sad in a way since im materialistic. Bye bye ukay2x, food trips, mcflurry, gifts galore…enough said material girl!
Saturday, August 13, 2005
my new LSS
halos araw araw, minuminuto ko itong kinakanta... nasusuka na si tal at vhanuk. at minsan ako din. kaso gusto ko siya at may naaalala ako sa kanya. wala masaya lang ako. =D
People Are People
D'sound
I am the one
Who believes in all that you say
I am the one
Who never wants to define herself
I am the one
Who’s paralell, upfront, behind
I am the one
Paddling like crazy through the night
Refine, old time, colourblind
Big sign, do time, doesn’t rhyme
A lot, too much, standing tall
And i’m crying in the valley:
“i shall never, ever fallen”
People are people
And i feel so strong
People are people and i’m
Going on
I am the one
Who stirrs it up everytime
I am the one
Who never knows how close she is
I am the one
Who’d rather be dead than confess
I am the one
Trying to be good, wanting to be bad and so on
Excess, temptress, big mess
Phoney, lonely, it’s a test
Be still my heart, don’t you fail
And i’m crying on the stagefloor:
“i will always prevailing!”
I’m going on…
People Are People
D'sound
I am the one
Who believes in all that you say
I am the one
Who never wants to define herself
I am the one
Who’s paralell, upfront, behind
I am the one
Paddling like crazy through the night
Refine, old time, colourblind
Big sign, do time, doesn’t rhyme
A lot, too much, standing tall
And i’m crying in the valley:
“i shall never, ever fallen”
People are people
And i feel so strong
People are people and i’m
Going on
I am the one
Who stirrs it up everytime
I am the one
Who never knows how close she is
I am the one
Who’d rather be dead than confess
I am the one
Trying to be good, wanting to be bad and so on
Excess, temptress, big mess
Phoney, lonely, it’s a test
Be still my heart, don’t you fail
And i’m crying on the stagefloor:
“i will always prevailing!”
I’m going on…
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
one wednesday, i was in church
I went to church last wednesday. Amazing because i don't go to church. not since 2003? and guess what I was doing there? I was crying. and i was asking papa jesus to forgive me. for the nth time.
i was walking the streets of Ortigas on my way home at about 9 in the morning. This is the next ordinary thing in my life for thing past three months. And whether it's believable or not Im always smiling and singing happy tunes everytime im walking along the streets of skyscraper-infested Ortigas. But this was a different day, I was talking to myself aloud and I was crying from a burdened heart.People were interestingly looking at me, most of them were construction workers bound for work. I might as well read their minds. "what's up with this hiskul girl here, and my o my she's talking...to herself!"
I was tired because I am sinful in all the literal ways and it struck me that it may be the Main reason of my random unhappiness. Last week, I was always absent in class especially my TF classes because I sleep. I always sleep and that's given. I was also absent from work roughly twice a week with so much conviction that I should be studying. Plus I am very inactive nowadays in UPRep. I curse myself for missing SONA. For the past days I also spend my hard earned money unwisely.
These can all be summarized as aika's capital sins slash unhappiness...
1.oversleeping
2.sloth
3.hedonist
4.lack of discipline
5.irresponsible
I would also like to share the trigger elements: I was attending the genmeet last tuesday and I am not performing well at work. i have zero sales. It bothers me big time.
There I was kneeling, praying and crying. I was talking penance here and that He would grant me a lighter heart. Peace of mind.
Lastly, I find it funny because everytime a person prays it's like talking to oneself in the most intimate way...
"lord, gusto ko lang naman matuto. mag-aral ng mabuti. gusto ko po magbasa ng magbasa. matutunan ang mundo, teorya at realidad. gusto ko rin makatulong sa nanay at tatay ko. kaya nga ako ngtratrabaho, hindi lang for financial independence but for my parents also...bigyan niyo po ako ng tamang motivation.alam kong gumagalaw ang mundo at ang tao in partikular dahil sa isang inspirasyon o kaya maraming inspirasyon at ideolohiya. mahal ko po ang pilipinas. kaya nga lahat ay alay dito. isang pahkilos at walang katapusang hangad ng pagbabago.at syempre gusto ko po ng companion. yung uupo sa tabi ko at kikilalanin ako. makikinig sa jokes ko. gusto ko rin pong umarte sa entablado. masilayan ang ngiti ng manonood at makita na naenlightened sila sa iyong performance. napanganga. ay sobrang dami pala..."
i didn't ask these things to papa jesus. only forgiveness and peace of mind. because we have long had this pact that certain sacrificies must be done to attain the most important things in my life.
right now, just the right inspiration, peace of mind and sales. =D
i was walking the streets of Ortigas on my way home at about 9 in the morning. This is the next ordinary thing in my life for thing past three months. And whether it's believable or not Im always smiling and singing happy tunes everytime im walking along the streets of skyscraper-infested Ortigas. But this was a different day, I was talking to myself aloud and I was crying from a burdened heart.People were interestingly looking at me, most of them were construction workers bound for work. I might as well read their minds. "what's up with this hiskul girl here, and my o my she's talking...to herself!"
I was tired because I am sinful in all the literal ways and it struck me that it may be the Main reason of my random unhappiness. Last week, I was always absent in class especially my TF classes because I sleep. I always sleep and that's given. I was also absent from work roughly twice a week with so much conviction that I should be studying. Plus I am very inactive nowadays in UPRep. I curse myself for missing SONA. For the past days I also spend my hard earned money unwisely.
These can all be summarized as aika's capital sins slash unhappiness...
1.oversleeping
2.sloth
3.hedonist
4.lack of discipline
5.irresponsible
I would also like to share the trigger elements: I was attending the genmeet last tuesday and I am not performing well at work. i have zero sales. It bothers me big time.
There I was kneeling, praying and crying. I was talking penance here and that He would grant me a lighter heart. Peace of mind.
Lastly, I find it funny because everytime a person prays it's like talking to oneself in the most intimate way...
"lord, gusto ko lang naman matuto. mag-aral ng mabuti. gusto ko po magbasa ng magbasa. matutunan ang mundo, teorya at realidad. gusto ko rin makatulong sa nanay at tatay ko. kaya nga ako ngtratrabaho, hindi lang for financial independence but for my parents also...bigyan niyo po ako ng tamang motivation.alam kong gumagalaw ang mundo at ang tao in partikular dahil sa isang inspirasyon o kaya maraming inspirasyon at ideolohiya. mahal ko po ang pilipinas. kaya nga lahat ay alay dito. isang pahkilos at walang katapusang hangad ng pagbabago.at syempre gusto ko po ng companion. yung uupo sa tabi ko at kikilalanin ako. makikinig sa jokes ko. gusto ko rin pong umarte sa entablado. masilayan ang ngiti ng manonood at makita na naenlightened sila sa iyong performance. napanganga. ay sobrang dami pala..."
i didn't ask these things to papa jesus. only forgiveness and peace of mind. because we have long had this pact that certain sacrificies must be done to attain the most important things in my life.
right now, just the right inspiration, peace of mind and sales. =D
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