is there something bad about being funny?

is there something bad about being funny? a defense mechanism? or just the way i am? there's nothing really deep about this question. it just occured to me that maybe humor is negative? i really don't know. i know i sound very vague. there's just some thoughts running through my mind these past few days.

i like someone right now. he's a farfetched dream. i know this is just another petty petty glass .haha. he just pops into my mind thus making me travel on a bus to a land i don't belong, a place of contradiction on my part, a place where im not supposed to be and maybe a place i should have left since june. hah. but im still going to that place for, i guess a lot of reasons and maybe ... tadaaa motivation?

to make this more vague, it came to me again how come i am still searching for love. the previous statement is not vague but vague still in the sense that it's still a rhetorical question since june 2003. and i hope it would drift away sometime in july 2005. O? it's july. awww i guess it would never drift. how i wish it would. by then IT will happen.

again this is petty. but that's not the point. i thought about this for days , for months hihi, for i don't know when. and i don't know when it ould just disappear along with the wind and carry a sweeper of my feet.

again there's no answer just yet. and this goes the same to my "funny -oriented" question.