unassertive

Assertive adj 1: inclined to bold and confident assertion; aggressively self-assured; "an energetic assertive boy who was always ready to argue"; "pointing directly at a listener is an assertive act" [ant: unassertive] 2: confidently aggressive; "too assertive as a salesman"; "his self-assertive and unflagging energy" [syn: self-asserting, self-assertive]

I don't know where to begin. It seems that I am pulling myself down these past few years. years? haha I realized I failed to assert myself in so many ways. I realized I was too concerned with what people would say. I realized that I was paying attention to pleasing people when in fact it's an impossibility.

I want to grow but I guess I am to blame for being a hindrance to my own growth. Maybe I am not making any sense but really I need to ASSERT myself big time and I don't really know where to begin.